I feel gross!
I did not eat my usual healthy fare today. And I can tell the difference.
Typically I have a smoothie, a piece of fruit and green tea for breakfast. Today? Breakfast sandwich and a latte. I’ve been trying to eat smaller, more frequent meals, focusing on fresh, whole foods. Mid morning usually consists of fat free plain yogurt with fruit and all-bran. Today? A pre packaged, flavored yogurt cup and a granola bar. My delicious lunchtime salad was replaced with a frozen dinner. And dinner tonight was fast food. To my credit, I did have three pieces of fruit today, and I resisted the urge to stop off for a frappuccino and a cookie on my way home. So, while I wasn’t perfect today, I did exert willpower at a time when I am often at my weakest. And I did do my morning yoga (yay me!)
So, how do I feel? Tired, slow, groggy, grumpy, frumpy, gross, moody, unhealthy. I went to go visit a friend tonight, and daresay I was lousy company!
What strikes me the most is the change in my mood. I have been really happy and positive the last few weeks, and it has felt amazing! But today, I felt my depression and anxiety creeping ever-so-quietly in. And, if I let them take hold, I will spiral back down into unhealthy habits.
I am interested in this link between food and mood. Especially diagnosed mood disorders such as depression and anxiety. I wonder if there are foods I should avoid? Foods I should gravitate towards? I’m going to have to research this some more. I’m not looking for a “miracle cure,” just ways of increasing my quality of life.
Oh, the other thing I noticed is that after I ate my burger tonight, I got all stuffed up. Wondering if that may be some type of food allergy or intolerance. I’m going to keep track of this and see of there are any patterns that emerge.
Tomorrow I will get up early (even though it’s a Saturday!) and go for an easy sunrise walk followed by yoga. I will remind myself that change takes time and if I want long term results, I need to keep doing my best every day.