One thing I’ve learned about myself recently is that I’m a very emotional person.
I’ve know for a long time that I’m an emotional person. It’s only been recently that I’ve accepted this about myself, and embraced it. I love that I can feel a wealth of emotions, and feel them with depth. But, sometimes, it can get a tad overwhelming.
This week, I’ve been dealing with some personal issues that have left me feeling a bit emotional. Yes, there have been tears, and sleepless nights… but it’s nothing I can’t handle. I’ve been through worse and survived – I know I have the strength and spiritual fortitude to get through this. Nonetheless, it is a rather emotional issue. And, I fully embrace the emotions that spring forth from it.
However, I’m also eating my way through this issue.
I didn’t need those cookies, or those rejected burnt cupcakes, or that milkshake. Last night’s dinner was entirely carbs (although, I suppose that does count as vegetarian, no?). I am really upset by this right now. I know it’s the wrong thing to do – turning to food to deal with my emotions.
I wonder, though – am I really dealing with my emotions through food, or am I just so drained from being so emotional that I’m too exhausted to eat healthy? Hmm…. I think it’s a bit of both. The rejected burnt cupcakes fall into the first category. The carb-filled dinner? I was just too exhausted to make anything healthier.
Today, when I got home, I sank into the comfortable chair in my living room and cried. Then I thought, “I should got for a brisk walk. It’s a lovely day, and I’ll feel better after some exercise.” Unfortunately, that ‘walk’ turned into a chicken burger, fries and a milkshake. But, at least I thought about exercising. I suppose it’s a start.
So, where do I go from here? I know what the problem is: when I’m emotionally run down, it’s hard to eat healthy. What can I do to fix this? Here are the ideas I’ve got so far:
- Keep the house stocked with healthy foods. Especially quick and healthy dinners.
- Establish a regular exercise routine for after work.
- Find an effective means of meditating when I’m feeling emotional.
- A big sign on the fridge reminding me to ask “Why are you eating that?”
- Call a friend.
- Find an exercise partner to keep me accountable.